Middle School Angst & Thoughts

Honestly, I thought you’d always be there waiting for me.

You were nice and comforting but maybe you changed

That your feelings would be a constant.

Always there as a what? A second option? A safeguard?

I never would have thought that I’d overlook something so important.

I overlooked your feelings.

No one was more surprised than I when I realized it.

I didn’t think when it came to you.

They spout ignorant, bigoted opinions without thinking about anyone but themselves.

They never think about the other side of the argument

All they can think about is the pro’s on the side they support

the gender they are

the experiences they had

and don’t stop to think that maybe, just maybe it’s DIFFERENT for other people.

I just wish people would figure out how to understand both sides of an argument,

how to think before you speak.

You probably have a different thought process of course, but it still frustrates me to no end when I see smart people make such ignorant remarks.

than have a handful of friends that really know all about me.

I feel like it should be the other way around or, that’s what mainstream thinking might say. But to me this is more convenient. It’s a lonely lifestyle, not being able to name who your “best friends” are, but it’s the one I chose to live.

I think I want to quit choir.

But that might just be because I haven’t been in choir for a while.

But yeah.

I will not quit this year though. I can’t. I have been entrusted with duties and what not.

But I make no promises about the years afterwards.

Don’t add me on Facebook, I won’t look through your Facebook.

Don’t look through my phone, and I won’t look through yours.

I won’t ask where you’re going or why you’re staying out late,

as long as you keep an open mind when I want to go out

It’s all a very nice system and I’m happy about it.

I’m mean because I want to watch a show I love and I don’t find it fair that you won’t let me change the channel.

“I’m watching” you say

YOU’RE IN THE OTHER FUCKING ROOM, HOW THE HELL ARE YOU WATCHING?!

AND THEN YOU SAY I HAVE PROBLEMS AND PROCEED TO CALL ME NAMES WHEN I COMPLAIN.

I COULD CURSE YOU OUT, I COULD NIT-PICK EVERY SINGLE FLAW IN YOUR DELUSIONAL, IGNORANT MIND.

BUT I’M RANTING ON TUMBLR INSTEAD.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE FOR HALF AN HOUR.

IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?

ALSO, I’D LIKE PEOPLE TO BE LESS ANNOYING.

I KNOW THAT’S TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR (=___=)

OKAY, I’M TIRED OF THIS WHOLE “PIGTAIL-PULLING” GOING ON WITH 4CHAN.

Fandom I get it.

They threatened Misha, did some bad things because thats what people on that specific board of 4chan do. ( I can’t really type it out, rule 1 guys) They cause controversy.

So now you want revenge and stuff, but seriously,

MORE THAN HALF OF PEOPLE ON THAT SITE DON’T GIVE A RAT’S ARSE, AND I BET MOST WON’T EVEN RECOGNIZE WHO MISHA COLLINS IS.

And the ones who did do this, well, this is exactly want they want from you.

To fight back.

Come on, this is like basic internet knowledge

“DON’T FEED THE TROLLS”

And honestly, I’m scared for you guys.

Anon does some pretty life-changing stuff, wether for the “good” or “bad” one cannot say.

I have faith in all you guys that you can be just as viscous but we not to stop this cycle of internet fighting.

WHY CAN’T WE ALL JUST FOCUS ON OUR LOVE OF KITTENS.

4CHAN LOVES KITTENS.

TUMBLR LOVES KITTENS.

CAN’T WE JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT?!

DO. 

NOT.

WANT.

(via glennuhhlen-deactivated20111102)

I feel like this is such an accurate term, to an extent.

When you think about things it can really bring you to the worst case scenario and to hidden meanings that really, you wish you’d just kept them hidden.

But thinking things through can also build understanding about the “Why?”.

It can enlighten you about why someone would be mad at you or why they do the things that they do.

But often, thinking about things also leads to revelations that relay a more harsh meaning, perhaps revealing a hidden objective. Something that you just, really wish you didn’t know.

But hey “the truth hurts”.